Me And My Wishes

A little happy! A little sad! A little proud! A little regret! A blended impression for making the first resolution as long as I live!

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January had gone. It had said “good bye” and leaved me with feelings of proud, and also regret. One by one I checked my January resolutions. One by one I scratched every wish I had realized, and gave a “smile” smiley on it. I felt very happy and proud to myself. I just never believed that I would be able to do those.

But somehow, it leaved “sad” smileys on the wishes I had not realized. It leaved feelings of sad and regret on the wishes I could not realized. I just kept questioning myself, “why could not I realized them?” One by one I seek the answer from my answer sheets. I was trying to find the best answer for that question, until I finally found the best one: A brother said, “Remember, Allah will always answer our wish, and it’s not always by answering “Yes!”, but sometimes, “No! I have a better one for you!” Then, a Sister concluded, “So, there won’t be unrealized wishes, but it will be replaced with a better one. Because, Allah won’t let you get something bad!” A great answer, isn’t it? It brought me to the end of my pursuit.

Finally, those “sad” smileys turned into “Happy” smileys. Then, I finally realized that, “Every time, I must wish for the best to Allah. Whether it’s wrong or right, but it’s good for me, as Allah will always make it right, and finally I will know which one is right and which one is wrong. That’s is better than wishing nothing to come”.

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                Gaining new spirit to write my wishes and make them realized by doing and praying is what I got from this trial. Trial? Why trial? For me it’s a trial to write resolutions. However, it will help me by becoming a compass to lead my step to my life destination. Then, I must go it on, and wish I will be better than me with my past life. Amin, Amin, Amin! Hope, Allah will make it right if it’s wrong.